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“If you’ve ever lost every part of yourself….”

Until you actually stop and think about what you’ve been through in your life, you never really appreciate just how strong you really are.

We all go through situations in life that we struggle with and find hard to deal with at the time. And, we often can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel or visualise that things will eventually get better. No matter what the situation. A break up. The loss of a loved one. Alopecia.

For me music is the key. And sometimes, music is the only thing that can completely take my mind off everything else that is going on in my life. I find it incredible how certain types of music can change your mood; from feeling depressed and down about yourself, to feeling totally euphoric and having hope for the future.

The music that makes me feel this way is trance. And the legends that are Above & Beyond. This is a photo that I came across online a few years ago, and only now does it truly make sense to me.


Alopecia has been one of the darkest moments in my life by far. And with a little help from Above & Beyond, I feel inspired with the next step of my journey…

Driving home today, listening to ‘Peace of Mind’ I suddenly realised that the place that I feel the most comfortable and unjudged is when I am at a trance event. This inspired me to do one of the things that I have been putting off for many years.

In two weeks time I am going to be travelling to Manchester to see Above & Beyond, and this is where I am going to brave going out in public with my hair UP!! For those of you that know me know how much of a big deal it is, and for those of you that don’t, I am sure you can imagine. Writing a blog and uploading photos to the internet is one thing, but going out into public where thousands of people are is another. But, surrounded by the Anjuna family and with some of the people closest to me I finally feel like I am ready to jump over this enormous hurdle.

The first time I saw Above & Beyond was at one of their land mark gigs, ABGT050. And from then on I fell in love with them. Their music makes me feel as though all of my troubles disappear and when I listen to them I feel such a huge weight lift off my shoulders.

Since ABGT050 back in 2013 I have seen A&B 9 times in different countries (including one of their acoustic shows at the iconic Royal Albert Hall). And every time I’ve been I have tried to hide my alopecia in some way or another. But not this time…


Whatever A&B event you are at the people that you are surrounded by are all part of one big family. I’ve met so many different people from all over the world, people that remain friends for life. The Anjuna family are a different kind of family, not one that will judge others, merely people that respect and love each and every person in that venue. And this is why I feel that I am ready to step out, as the real me. WITH ALOPECIA!

This is going to be one of the scariest things I think I have done to date as I have been hiding it for 8 years. I will be uploading photos on the night for you all to see, and hope that by doing this it will encourage more of you to feel comfortable in your own skin. You really are beautiful and should never let anyone make you feel any different.

As well as sharing my journey with you all I want to share my love for trance, and Above & Beyond. Their music has got me through some of the darkest moments in my life and I really hope that by reading this post you can listen, and feel inspired just like I have been. I’d like to share this song with you as this is the song that makes me look at life differently. The lyrics are absolutely incredible. It makes me really appreciate who I am as a person and helps me to think that no matter how bad life is,”it will be only a matter of time, before your life comes through for you.”

Jade x



2 thoughts on ““If you’ve ever lost every part of yourself….”

  1. Thank you for being open and honest . Your words will be an inspiration to many in their darkest hours . A&B were saviours and are for helping me find an escape to life’s most difficult moments. I wish the utmost confidence in your journey . Regards Charlie #anjunafamily

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